# Discovering I Was Not Halakhically Jewish and Choosing Conversion

- Original post: https://www.twitter.com/i/status/2109105123465081290
- Source account: [@ElectBilzerian](https://x.com/ElectBilzerian)
- Source language: English
- Duration: 1:02
- Published: 2026-10-11
- Canonical URL: https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion

## Transcript

[0:00](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion) And I found out that I was not halakhically Jewish, which was a huge shock to me, and then the final verdict came in that was like, "No, you are not halakhically Jewish." That was devastating.

[0:12](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=12) Oh my gosh, I, like, cried for three months. It was horrible.

[0:14](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=14) Were you sad? Were you mad? All the above?

[0:17](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=17) All of the above. Mm-hmm. Like, I was angry.

[0:20](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=20) I felt lied to, not really by my parents, just by, like- Sure ... the world. I felt lied to and just heartbroken, and Judaism was the part of my identity that I always felt solid in.

[0:30](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=30) I, I had been so lost on so many other parts of my life throughout my life, but I always felt like I'm Jewish. That's the thing I can hold on to, and then all of a sudden it's like, "By the way, you're not," and I was like, "Whoa,

[0:41](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=41) what do you mean the biggest part of my identity is just out the window?" In the end, conversion ended up being a huge bracha for me because I got a very clear path of what I need to do, what I need to learn.

[0:51](https://www.translate.mom/transcript/0K6qffJWs2sQ/en/discovering-i-was-not-halakhically-jewish-and-choosing-conversion?t=51) So in the end, I'm actually very grateful that it happened, and I think it was a very, very difficult experience. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, but the most rewarding thing I've ever done, too, so.