Arabic → English transcript

Let me talk to you about the real reason I came to Jeddah.

And of course I do not want to say that I thought a hundred thousand times before posting this video, because I really did not think.

And I might be speaking out of resentment.

And also.

Also.

The trauma.

Look how I am so…

And maybe also from choking up with emotion.

And maybe because I want to say…

My friends and my mom, everyone tells me not to go and talk, because society, and society…

I want to tell you to describe this society, because if we were truly a respectable society,

by God, these types would not appear,

and we would not have reached this day

with this level of ugliness,

with this hypocrisy,

with this lying,

with these actions,

something completely abnormal.

There is no closeness in the world.

In a way that is…

honestly not normal.

I do not know.

I cannot even express to what extent.

Including that.

We will do the filter.

Because beauty is the most important thing.

Despite all the difficulties.

I came to Jeddah because I was writing my book.

And what happened is that I

grabbed my brother a few days before I started writing the book.

Honestly, I only thought about these things in Turkish and Indian series.

But no.

I actually lived them.

And I do not know how I feel.

I cannot

get

to

the feeling.

What are the details?

Honestly, I feel like I am not in the mood to talk about the details.

But…

But what?

But glory be to God,

Lord of the worlds,

when

you insist on something,

or you want to be a preacher,

the Lord of the worlds shows you

it

clearly.

I used to think the best of people

to an abnormal degree.

This has always been something that wears me out.

I say it is impossible that anyone would do something like that.

And that it is normal,

it makes a person make mistakes and then straighten out.

Anyway,

among the things that…

I said I do not want to talk about the details.

But among the things that I feel really shocked me

is that he was not only a cheater

who decided to go see her.

On top of that,

it was an old relationship.

And on top of that,

he

told me,

“Did I not tell you

that I used to be your brother,

and I lied to you

until we signed the marriage contract

so that you would not be able to do anything?

Who understands you

that if we sign the marriage contract,

it means I cannot do anything?”

Anyway

Lately

I really love Tatcha

So I will use this serum

To take away

The fatigue.

And what’s even more upsetting

Is that I am currently in Jeddah

And the flights are really bad.

So

What happened is

God made it easy for me and sent me

My friend Shahad

I want to say that she embraced me

Literally.

Glory be to God. May God reward her with all goodness

And I see nothing but happiness in her life.

If I look at it

From a positive perspective

I performed Umrah

I left Saudi Arabia

And I performed Umrah

And I feel like I let everything out

All the grudges

And the sadness

That is what happened

I feel like I have a deeper point of view than this

But I feel that what happened

Is exactly how it once happened to me

And correct me if I am wrong, I was losing passion

And getting depressed

But sometimes there has to be

Treatment of trauma with trauma

So that the picture grows

And so that a person remembers

Where he is

And what

And how

In the name of God