English transcript

I love you so much, but I've always wanted a partner to be on the same

wavelength and so today I can't

I'm sorry but I don't want that to be misunderstood I still love you and

everything about you is amazing and I care about you so much I care about you

too I love you so much and I know I want to stay with you and keep growing our

relationship if you'll let me I know that the connection we have is so real

and my heart is there but we talked about a lot of the values that I hold so

close to my heart making this decision my mind is telling me I can't

oh my gosh I'm fine

I'm fine, get me out of here. You guys, really, I'm okay. I don't know, I feel kind of numb.

Oh yeah because it's bad like I was really excited about Ben and I I'm like he's

such a great person I just like

I just hope I made the right decision. Hi guys. I love you. It was a lot but we're rolling with it. I just want to talk to her.

Was it like the time frame? I mean I knew the whole time coming into this

the time frame like that's not like I feel like I know him like really yeah

like I remember like I asked him about like Black Lives Matter and I'm no expert

but like when I asked him about it he was like I guess I never really thought

too much about it that affected me especially in our own city like how

could it not how do you not make you think about something I asked him to like

what his church's views are and he said he didn't know and so then I watched a

sermon online from his church about yeah sexual identity okay and it was

traditional I told that to Ben and I just thought it doesn't really have much to say about it you know

I want something to think about that stuff sometimes I did wonder if it was

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