Greek → English transcript

Can you remember the first time you felt different?

You mean when I first felt attracted to another woman.

I do not think I can pinpoint that feeling accurately.

But I remember one time, I was still a student.

A friend of mine, Irini, had come to stay at the hotel with me.

It was raining a lot that night.

There was lightning, and at some point a loud thunderclap was heard.

Irini got scared and fell into my arms.

And what happened next?

Eleni, let me remind you that here you can feel safe.

Whatever we say will stay here.

You do not need to be ashamed. I am not going to judge you.

Go on.

Maybe that was the first time I felt awkward.

I felt something inside me, inside my body, that I could not explain.

Like something forbidden and strange.

And what did you do about it?

Nothing.

Irini was my best friend.

It was not toward her.

But I remember how much that incident affected me.

That unprecedented feeling.

I felt the need to fight it.

I was scared.

So there was this young man who worked at Mr. Markopoulos’ shop back then.

And he had shown some interest.

So I started flirting with him.

He responded and we started going out.

We even exchanged a few kisses.

How did you feel then?

Nothing. Nothing special.

Believe me, I wanted to feel something more.

I liked Tasos a lot.

He was charming, kind.

But I was never truly in love with him.

After this Tasos, did you have any other relationship?

Then I left for Athens to study.

Maybe I did that too as an attempt

to get far away.

What did you want to get away from?

From all these things I am afraid of.

There were some boys there who were flirting with me.

And I will not hide from you that that made me feel good.

But I did not do anything with anyone.

The only thing I cared about was finishing my studies.

I understand.

Do you want to talk to me now about your relationship with your father.

When you were a child.

How was it back then.

I do not know what to tell you.

I lost my mother early.

And my father was forced to play the role of both parents.

I received a lot of love from him.

And from my siblings.

I have no complaints.

But I will not hide from you that I felt a great responsibility.

I was the only woman in the house for many years.

A girl who grew up with three men, interesting.

What do you mean.

Nothing. That is just how it is now.

I think we have said enough for today.

You hurt.

You did not hurt.

This is not a painless treatment.

That was it.

The most important part, yes.

So, I will leave you now.

And we will continue in the next few days.

Doctor.

Thank you.

You too.

Bye, Eleni.

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