Arabic → English transcript

Peace be upon you. Today’s video is really not normal at all.

Today’s video carries a very painful memory in my life.

In this video, I wanted to tell you what happened,

that my children have been away from my embrace for a year.

It has been a year for Rital, Sara, and Nour,

and I have not held them or embraced them. It has been a year for Asmaa and

her daughters

without me hugging them or hearing their voices,

or complaining to my sister Asmaa about my worries and my sadness.

It has been a year.

I used to think that it would be

a very easy year for me, or a year

that would not carry all this pain in my life.

But it was the worst year a person could ever go through.

The fourth of March was a date that was really not normal, a date that changed the

course of my entire life.

My sadness was not about the injury or the disfigurement that

I am living with today.

The greater sadness was in my heart, which lost

the most precious thing a person

can lose in their life. To have four children and suddenly to

have only one.

It is very hard on a person. I had wanted to appear before you

in a video where I would talk

about our courage, where I would talk about our patience, talk about our

steadfastness, about our sacrifices.

But as usual, I do not plan my

videos and I do not prepare what I am going to say,

I just show up like this in a spontaneous video.

So this is what came out of me.

Today I am sharing my sadness with you, and sharing my tears with you,

sharing my longing with you.

Today I really miss them so much, and I really wish that

this memory…

the first anniversary of losing our loved ones would be…

I do not know.

I do not know, but all I know

is that I miss them so much.

And that it is not easy for me to be parted from them

and it is not easy for me to be without them. And this is the hardest trial

a person can go through. I always say that

the people of Gaza have offered

and accomplished and closed all the doors of jihad.

But the hardest and most brutal of them was

the jihad of loss. We are trying

to make our loss of our loved ones

and our separation from them

a motivation for our steadfastness, the strength of our faith,

and a test of our determination.

I always say that what I went through is a choosing from the Lord of the worlds.

But at the same time

what we went through was

a very difficult trial, a very hard pain, a very hard sorrow.

So always wrap me in your prayers

And keep me always present in your prayers, in your prostration,

in your night prayers, I am in desperate need for you

to always pray for me.

May our Lord heal me and keep me steadfast,

and may our Lord strengthen my patience and strengthen my resolve and

strengthen my faith. And grant us strength beyond our own

so that our Lord may be pleased with us. O Allah, we are content,

so be pleased with us. Praise be to Allah, Lord of the worlds.