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I don't know, do I seem different?

Yesterday I spent, it's, it's becoming really

normal and I love it, man. I mean, this Ramadan

especially, now that it's wrapping up, I think

was the, the most... I don't want to say transformative,

it sounds like trans, but I mean, look, I, I

spent eight hours sitting in the masjid today,

and it, it was easy. But I used to get exhausted

like 30 minutes in there. I, um... And I've

been making dua, I've been thinking a lot about

how I want to carry this through the rest of

my life. Like the past several years, I would

do Ramadan, but I would always like worry and

wonder, like how much Muslim, how Muslim should

I go during Ramadan?

Because content is not Muslim. Streaming is

the opposite of anything godlike or anything

godly. Right?

So I'd be like, all right, I don't want to go

too far in because I want to make content. This

year's different. And inshallah, I'm able to

stick to that, but I'm ready to leave so much

of that dunya behind. And if people don't want

to watch the content, you know, because I'm

trying, right?

And again, like I really noticed that I've done

the best of my career not getting involved in

that. Everyone else does it. There's no point

in being like everyone else because you can

find Sodom and Gomorrah content on the rest

of the website. But as I've, uh, been locked

in this Ramadan, I'm, I'm ready to, to level

up my deen and get to the, the point that I,

I should be at. Like for example, today I finally

was able to memorize Surah Ikhlas, which I should

have, I mean look, I've been, it's almost four

years I've been Muslim. I should have memorized

that a long time ago. I'm working on Surah Nas

right now, and I want to also memorize Surah

Kafirun. It's hard, but now I can lead prayer.

And it's like, I should have been at that point

for a long time now. Qul huwallahu ahad, Allahus

samad, uh, lam yalid wa... oh, I already forgot

it. Wait, hold on, hold on. Let me refresh it.

Qul huwallahu ahad... Yeah, I should have been

at that point for a long time. My pronunciation

was... bro, I was in Quran class today. There

was a random... and I felt like I was in school.

Like there was, uh, I spent like two hours in

Quran class. You know, and that's, um, yeah,

I, I do want to get back to the streaming, but

what feels different this Ramadan is like, not

only do I not feel... it, it's weird because,

I hope it's not windy. I would feel shame, you

know?

It's because streaming is so Sodom and Gomorrah

that I would almost feel shame doing what I'm

supposed to do. Because there's nothing better

than, than this. Like what, what else could

you be better using your time on than getting

close to God?

There's nothing.