English transcript

I want to talk about some emails that I sent

years ago that resurfaced recently. The tone

in these emails was dismissive and curt, and

that is not okay. In 2019, I... I didn't have

a team around me. It was just myself. I edited

every single video, I answered every single

email, and I was... overwhelmed. But that is

not an excuse. Uh, everything lands on me. I

think the hardest part about all of this is

being labeled a racist. I'm half Chinese, and

growing up, issues of identity, race, and belonging...

deeply affected me, and I would never intend

to inflict that onto anybody else. But I do

understand that reading these emails, people

could be upset and assume bias, especially given

the frequency at which people of color experience

being dismissed. And so I take responsibility

for... for... for my words, regardless of what

my intent was. I also want to acknowledge people's

concerns that they were mistreated or felt dismissed

or treated less than on the red carpet. Live

events move really fast, and I would never want

someone to come see me and leave feeling that

way. But I do understand that it could happen,

and it did happen, and for that, I am sorry.

I have... I'd like to think that I have grown

a lot in the past seven years, and I always

want to treat everybody with the respect that

they deserve. But clearly, uh, more could be

done, and I... and I can do better. And so that's

a thing that I want to focus on, um, improving,

and just working towards being better. These

are just some thoughts I've... that have been

weighing on me, um, that I wanted to share.

And so, thanks for watching.