Exploring Catholicism and Authority

And the first domino to fall for me was the Eucharist, because she presented

it, you know, in, in the Bible study and, and I just thought,

"That's weird." And then I got the catechism out, and I was

reading about what the catechism said, and I, I thought...

And then I did the Greek, you know. I'm looking at the Greek in the-

Mm-hmm

... in the scriptures and all that. And I'm like, "It can't mean anything

but this.

It has to be this." And I also knew topology very well, so

I could see how God had prepared, you know,

the, the,

His people.

Mm-hmm.

And then Jesus in John 6, and then, you know, walking on the water,

multiplying the fishes and the loaves, and I'm like, "It has to mean this.

And if we got this wrong,

what else have we gotten wrong?" 'Cause this is salvific.

This is not some minor thing. This is major.

Mm-hmm.

If you eat my flesh and drink my blood,

you have life. You have eternal life. I mean, that, this is important.

So that's when it scared me. That's when I got scared.

'Cause then I thought, "Oh, my word."

And I remember even saying to God, I said, "You don't want me to be Catholic,

do you?" I mean, really.

And I just couldn't see how that could ever happen.

But the more truth I learned,

I got so deep in it,

I couldn't back away from it.

Yeah.

So there were a couple of sticking points, but it really

was the issue of authority that brought me in.

Because

after those two church splits, I got that catechism down, and I

started looking at the Reformation and Martin Luther

and reading

biographical stuff about him,

reading his, his writings, not in the German, but translated.

And, and I just thought, "This guy was not holy."

Mm.

And he had a father wound which made him...

I, I call myself his little sister because it

made him rebellious in the same

ways that I was-

Mm-hmm

... because of my father wound. So I recognized it very clearly.

And I just thought, "Okay, well, I guess this is it."