Discussing Relationships in Adult Film

And they think that we're just having sex with everybody on set

the same way that we're doing with a performer.

And like, like same as you, like when I would have sex with someone,

I would be

like, "I'm gonna fuck you and have sex with you like you're

the best person in the, my world-

You mean the love of my life

... the love of my life." And as soon as they say cut, I'm like,

"I'll never to

speak to you ever again."

I know, I know.

Like-

No, it was hard for me. Like when I first

I don't even remember when I meant this.

Um, but sure, I will.

Like when I first started performing, like it was very hard for me because I

would

like fall in love with these men. I'm like, "Wait, this wasn't real?

Like you wanna be with me?"

And then over time I was like, "Okay, okay, um, okay."

Mine was the opposite. Like I would have sex with them so

hardcore, and they would

fall in love with me, and they wanna take me on date.

Yeah.

And I was like, "No, thank you."

That was me. I was the one falling in love with the

super-

Like I never dated anyone in the industry, and I have many guys

that wanted to and then I was like-

You don't want to

... "I don't wanna go home with you."

No, trust me. Oh, my God, it's the worst when that happens though,

like

if you do have sex with someone off camera and then like, so I, I was

used to like, again, when I first started.

I used to always hook up with this guy, and we used to have like amazing sex like

on camera and off camera. But then like, he started to get like really intense

feelings for me, and literally be like, "I wanna be with you." And I'm like, "Bro,

you're literally like 40 and I'm 19 years old.

Like, I don't wanna date you." And then he,

he literally got to the point that he

could not like work with me. Like, he put me on his no list.

Like, he was like so angry with me that I didn't want...

And I was like, damn, bro, you should have never hooked up with me

outside of

camera- ... 'cause I just lost a really good scene.

Like-

You know what's funny? I had never really have sex off camera-

You don't strike me as the type.

With any... No, I never done it with anyone in the

industry.

Like-

Yeah, I know.

I had never had sex with any performer unless we're doing content

or are we shooting a scene. Like I never feel like the

necessity-

It's, it's-

Because I was just like, I already have sex with you. I, I'm...

There's nothing interesting you can show me.

Oh, no. Okay.

And I tried a few times, and I remember being like-

Did you?

Like two guys. I, I c-

Off camera?

I hang out. No, no.

I'm shocked. Okay.

No, no. We were shooting content.

Oh, okay. Yeah.

But it was still like, we would go out to dinner after

and stuff like that.

I'm, I'm shocked, Luna. Like-

No, but like, but then I realized after the sex ends,

I didn't wanna

speak to these people.

It's post-nut clarity, like-

Yes. It's like, I'm like, "I, we don't have nothing in common."

I actually really don't like you as a person.

And it wasn't, it wasn't for me. Like I, I think I give everything when I was on

set and like we had such a good time, and then I was like, "That's it.

That's all I'm interested with you for."

When I retired from performing,

um, I didn't even have an only fans, so I never shot content like with

people. So the only time that I would have sex with them would be

on set.

And then I'm like the opposite. Like if I really like having sex with you, I'm

just, I'm gonna, I'm gonna like force myself to like your

personality-

... even though it's like shitty as fuck. Like, he's fine.

Like, great. Like I'll look for any sliver of like hope

to-

Yeah, you have like 20 red flags, but one green one, you're like-

Oh, my God. Yeah.

I'll go for that one

And I'm gonna make this happen for the, for real life