Reflections on Modern Dating Experiences

Like, I think he's an awesome guy, and maybe I'll see him again,

but I just think he might be a little too nice for me.

Which, again, there's nothing wrong with that, and,

like, that's usually the dream.

But he

also really loves dogs, he's close with his family, he likes to

travel, he's been solo traveling.

We were there for, like,

two and a half hours. Complete gentleman, paid for

everything. I did my usual, like, "Do you wanna split the bill?" Of course,

he said

no, and he paid for my Uber home. And

it was nice. It was nice to be on a date with, like,

a good New York guy

again, so I'll let you guys know if we see him again.

Last night, I went on a first date. He was a really great guy.

He's gonna make some woman so happy.

Nothing wrong with this man. Like, takes great care of himself, great job,

really wholesome, can tell he's a good guy.

It just wasn't my guy.

I wasn't

super excited leaving the date. Looking back, I'm like,

I don't really think

there's any need for me to see him again. Let myself lose hope.

Like,

I know, you guys, and some people tell me I'm unrealistic

for this,

but I know that I am meant for a grand, spectacular

love.

Like, everything else I do in my life is pretty damn big, and I like to,

like,

create this big and magnificent life for myself.

Doing myself such a disservice to settle for something that

doesn't light me up. Like, I just truly believe that

I can have that. I know that that exciting and awesome love exists,

and I'm gonna get it. I don't care.

Okay, Carly, maybe you are

expecting something that's not realistic, like you are gonna meet somebody and just

have this, like, big feeling. Well, if I don't have that, then I'd rather

be alone, so y'all are crazy, crazy if you think

that I would settle for a man that doesn't

light my world all the way up.

Bruh, dating in this era is confusing as hell.

If you're nice, you're too nice. If you're average, you're boring.

She needs someone to light up her world, whatever that means.

And if you're unpredictable and toxic, you get the women, but then they get hurt

and call all men trash. At least they know the game they're

playing, and the

consequences that come with it. Hmm.

I want to feel inspired and interested, and

I just want somebody who I think is so unique and cool for me.

Haven't found him yet. I'm gonna keep putting myself out there.

I'm gonna hold on to hope. Love you. Bye.