Personal Story of Infidelity and Reflection

Last night after I came back home, my husband was here, um, and

he said the most insane thing to me, the most

hurtful thing. It was kinda like he had ran

through our entire life for the last ten years

and highlighted the things that would trigger me the absolute

most, and then formulated it- them into a

nuclear weapon of a thought and flung

it at me when I came home. Um, and

because of that, I'm gonna say what I did. I'm gonna say what I did.

Um, and the reason that I, I admitted, um, to my husband what I did is

because I'm not a shady character, but the reason that I never really said it

on

TikTok since having all of my followers is because a man will only forgive you for

cheating if not all of his friends know about it.

Um, so that's what I did. After he ruined the Taylor Swift concert,

and

then I came to him and said, "Hey, this was such a big deal, I need you

to not fuck up my birthday or we have to get divorced.

The cup will be full. I cannot undo the past.

If you fuck up this birthday, we have to get a, a divorce." Um,

and then he

intentionally fucked up the birthday, so I cheated.

Um, I went out. It wasn't hard. I'm pretty.

Um, men are always willing to cheat with me.

Um, but I did end up getting the karma

that I deserved within

that entire thing. Here's the thing, if you're going to play

games of immorality, you have to be

prepared to take the full lickback, everything that's

gonna happen to you if you're doing, um, evil shit.

And I believed that the only thing that my husband would

care about that would hurt him as bad as he hurt me by

ruining that concert was to cheat on him.

Um, but the way that I ended up getting hurt

in the entire situation is that,

like I've told you guys, I never move towards a man

that I have romantic

interest in. I believe it's some kind of patriarchal

witchcraft that they're under.

It's not real. Um, so anytime that I ever was like,

"Ooh, that guy tickles my fancy a little," I got

the fuck away from him,

except for the time that I was looking to have an affair just to hurt

my husband, and I didn't have an affair. It was cheating. It was a one-time thing.

Um, but I liked it. I liked it a lot. It

was so nice. It was so nice to be kissed.

My husband hasn't actually kissed me in maybe seven years or something like

that. Um, and when we have sex, it's like you just both get off

and it's over with.

Um, so to have a, like, a cheating incident with a man

where

he was such a good kisser, and he was so cute, and he could pick

me up, like, that was sexy. Um, I'm not a huge woman, but a lot of men

are really fucking weak. Um, and it was just awesome.

And then immediately after that when I was in this, like, glowy haze,

um, he did a show with the comedians in

Spokane and then never talked to me the

same ever again.