First Love, De Gregori’s Atlantide and a Healing Goodbye

I'm happy when I'm with you. And I didn't know what to say because it caught me off guard, you know, because I thought, why is she moving on after two years, after sending me a sweet message?

I was sure she hated me, so to tell me something nice first, I thought, look, I don't hate you, I care about you and all, now go to CF, I'll support you, okay?

I'm with you. But then she says, “Yeah, but just so you know, there's someone else now,” like, she's together with someone else. But, kind of…

I mean, on one hand I was at peace, on the other I thought, “My God.”

You were hurt. No, because, I mean, I'm happy, I said, “Look,” I'm happy you found this person, because I'm not the person for you now, so I said, enjoy it. I said, “Make sure you're treated well, please,” because, though…

But it did catch me off guard a bit, especially since then we said goodbye, I say, "Fine, let's give each other a hug, all good." And then she sends me this song on WhatsApp, this straight-up song, just like that, "Atlantide."

By De Gregori, out of nowhere. But do you know who this per— I mean, are you sure she was actually seeing this person?

I don't know now. Back then, yes, because why would she tell me…

Then I don't know if she's gotten together with him now. Maybe in the meantime, it's over, I don't know. As long as she's okay. But you know, we leave, I still remember she was— Maybe she was expecting a...

A reaction from me. No, it's not like that. She's too mature for this stuff. She needed to put an end to it.

Why would she send you the song? She sends me the song, and it talks specifically about a love that never happened.

It talks about that, I mean, our story, specifically, I mean, a love that never happened.

Because he decided to, right in the middle of our story.

So he, you know, sends me this song. I went, "Oh my God," so I figure that I get in the car, listen to this song on my way back to Capì like, what the hell? There it is.

But the funny thing is that I, just two months earlier, in the chat where I write to her about things, she'd posted a story with this song. I said, "You know what?"

This story smells fishy to me. And then I hadn't written there in like six months, because, like, for four, five months I'd completely forgotten about the chat. So I say, "You know what?"

This story smells fishy, this song is about us, you know.

Just think, a De Gregori song. Can you imagine? So I told her, "I mean, stop."

I mean, you get it, I said, "We're connected."

And the next day I come here to CF, and do all the social tests.

I come here, do all the social stuff, and she brings me my clothes. One of her hangers falls out, with her number on it, I mean.

What the fuck kind of name is Beatrice for a hanger?

I mean, why would a hanger call you, so…

It felt weird. And then I got back in touch with her because I said, “Look, we need to talk again because I feel like I didn't say everything, but we met for, like, an hour and a half, laughing, and really understanding, okay, maybe it was over,

I mean, it is over. Then I said, “Are we sure? Were we each other's first love?”

Yes. Were we in love? Yes, it was a beautiful thing, that's that.

Then we told each other a little about our lives, and in the end, a big hug.

I wish you all the best, but I really needed to do that for…

I really got a weight off my chest. But why are you sending me the…

Um. I needed it. It helped you. But it was liberating. She told me, now, why do I have to leave for shore, she told me there, she kno-